A mind which drifts towards 8 different thoughts and possibility 8^2 subjects as well., should be called as “Octopus Mind”
I realize mine is already became octopus and im trying to kill all of its legs or claws or whatever moving / tasty hands it has. Yeah I had tasted some fried octopus in Thailand trip. somewhere in Krabi i guess.
Snap. See this is one example as I try to explain what the fuck is octopus mind and I am typing about my 4th honeymoon trip to Krabi.
So, How to detect if you have or becoming an octopus mind? Simple.. Just like how I realized.. Take a book (paper back or hard cover) and try to read it. Fiction, Non-Fiction or The Pulitzer Prize winner “The Denial of Death” by Ernest Becker or anything of your choice. I realized my eyes are just consuming words on a page , But my mind is thinking about how should I vacate this house to new house? which size cargo vehicle I should hire? Why my brother sent a glossy flashy looking flower design printed door for my new house? And why I am not recording videos daily for my youtube channel Expired Visam? Should I continue reading this book or buy 13 more books which are recommended by Director Myskinn and Vetri Maran in a youtube video? all these flashed on my mind while reading (? no) passing page 3. So I had to pause a second and start from the beginning of the page. I cannt control the loop and I am here to write about a newly invented Octopus mind theory.
I even have some crazy focus flips., Due to the nature of my entrepreneurship I have to use various instant messaging apps and Youtube is my usual learning, entertainment destination. When I scroll between mobile app screens or screens within a single app. By looking at each app a thought popsup or a task which I have in my backlog for a while popsup. Ex: Call carpenter and ask about new cup board handles… then I scroll to few other videos and I think about some other crap and I forgot the carpenter calling thing…. Then I feel sooo dark and roll my eyes and say.. Oh snap.. I have to do something.. But i forgot it..
Here comes the crazier part.. Now I have to do reverse scrolling of youtube and look back to previous video thumbnails and then I am able to recall carpenter calling thing…. Oh man! I got some kind of thought – memory linking associated with something I see or think about. So to recall.. I have to reverse spin my thoughts like Dr Strange and get back into it. Its crazy, stupid and bad.
IN between this blog post.. I started watching a 1 hour video of Screen Writer Conference in India which had a panel discussion of Pushkar – Gayathri , Vertri maran.. now paused it and back to this post. Ok well., I am going to continue watch it.
The temporary flashing memory of events and things is a kind of killing me. I am not exaggerating .. I thought of a task while typing about SWC video in above paragraph now I forgot it. Let me try to recall…… Oh yeah fuck.. I recalled by reading the word “Gayathri” above… Coz while typing her name.. I am not sure if that is her name or “Devi” it is Pushkar – [female name] combo director who directed the epic screen play master piece “Vickram Veda” movie. So yeah… The thing I forgot about in previous paragraph is.. I have a huge trouble in remembering person names. I forget names and It takes a lot while to remember and match the person vs name.. This is also something I am struggling socially awkward when I forget and let someone nearby to mention the name and then I say during the conversation. So I guess these are memory deficit , procrastination, distractions, focus flips.. Have to reverse them.. I guess reading books is better as it requires us to focus in one subject and practice our imagination muscles in brains to render awesome imaginations about what we read within our mind. So I am going to practice reading nice books to stay focused or “thinking about one topic” during a span of time. It helps in everywhere personally & professionally. I dont want to keep my octopus mind. See ya back to SWC video.